For a few days, I have been able to keep the negative thoughts away, ... and it has been good. I convinced myself, that everything would turn out fine, ... that whatever was growing inside me was very small, .. could be removed easily,... that by talking to them, I had at least shrunk the spots on my liver, ( I am a believer in this possibility). However, to-day, even though it is a gloriously sunshiny day with about a foot of sparkly, fresh snow on the ground, which usually fills me with joy, my stomach and chest have that anxiousness. I'm trying to think what started this again, ... but can't, unless it is the fact that I have an appointment in 2 days with the surgeon. I have been wanting Monday to hurry and get here and to know when the surgery, if that is what is next, will be.
I have 2 discs with all the information from the CAT-scans, X-rays, and MRI in the car ready to take with me on Monday. I didn't know technology had made this possible. I only had to go to my X-ray department at the hospital and they were ready in 10 minutes. This must be a time-saver for doctors for sure.
I will banish the nerves somehow to-day. Must get the muffins out of the oven.
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Great Day
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
One of my favourite days, ... the birthday lunch. There are 12 of us, ... all old High School friends. We have breakfast together on the first Tuesday of the month, and lunch at the "Birthday Girl's" choice of place in the month of her birthday. This was Joy's day. It is always great to be together.
I enjoyed a very small lunch, that is all I eat anymore, ... afraid to eat too much and by now, my stomach has shrunk enough, that I don't want to eat. However, I have been in a better frame of mind to-day and slept very well last night, .. with no negative thoughts. On one of these tense days, I found myself sitting in the lazy-boy with my shoulders up around my ears with stress. I decided it was time for a relaxing massage with my good friend Freda. We talk a lot, and are on the same wave-length about many things spiritual, ... she is good for me. She recommended a book called, "As a Man Thinketh" by James Allen and I remembered that this was a book my dad had among his books. My dad was a wonderful man, ... but that is another story.
Tomorrow is another day, ... I plan to make it a positive one, ... send good thoughts to my liver, ... tell it to smarten up, ... get healthy, ... that I need it.
One of my favourite days, ... the birthday lunch. There are 12 of us, ... all old High School friends. We have breakfast together on the first Tuesday of the month, and lunch at the "Birthday Girl's" choice of place in the month of her birthday. This was Joy's day. It is always great to be together.
I enjoyed a very small lunch, that is all I eat anymore, ... afraid to eat too much and by now, my stomach has shrunk enough, that I don't want to eat. However, I have been in a better frame of mind to-day and slept very well last night, .. with no negative thoughts. On one of these tense days, I found myself sitting in the lazy-boy with my shoulders up around my ears with stress. I decided it was time for a relaxing massage with my good friend Freda. We talk a lot, and are on the same wave-length about many things spiritual, ... she is good for me. She recommended a book called, "As a Man Thinketh" by James Allen and I remembered that this was a book my dad had among his books. My dad was a wonderful man, ... but that is another story.
Tomorrow is another day, ... I plan to make it a positive one, ... send good thoughts to my liver, ... tell it to smarten up, ... get healthy, ... that I need it.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
beginnings
My journey began on November 1, 2009. I woke at 5:00 a.m. with pain in my upper abdomen radiating from one side to the other. For about 2 weeks prior to this, I had noticed that my stomach was becoming distended at a rate much more quickly than would be normal for the amount of food that I was eating. Knowing that warm water could relieve stomach pain, at about 7 a.m. I had a mug of lemon and honey in just that. Shortly thereafter, I lost the warm water and the pain stayed with me for the rest of the day. Later in the afternoon, my temperature began to rise, and I again was sick to my stomach. We , my husband Elvin and I, decided that it would be a good idea to have this checked out, and so we made a trip to the Emergency (now called a UCC) where I was looked after very quickly and it was determined that I had a bowel blockage. I was hooked up to an intravenous, given an X-ray that verified the blockage, and was admitted to hospital. I was given pain medication, medication to relieve the gas, and antibiotics On day 2 of my stay, I was taken to Greater Niagara General Hospital for a CAT-scan that verified the findings of the X-ray, ... a blockage in the area of the valve between the large and small bowel.
You are allowed 2 days in a hospital here in Fort Erie and so I was shipped to Welland by Patient Transfer to see a surgeon who was to give me a colonoscopy hopefully followed by surgery. This surgeon after a minimal examination declared that I had gastroenteritis, not a blockage and took me off all medication. I was having clear liquids to eat. When first in Emergency, there were no bowel sounds, in other words, nothing was moving. About day 2, bowel sounds finally began to be heard by stethoscope and this was the beginning of diarrhea that lasted for about 10 days. On the day I was to be discharged, the surgeon in Welland decided that perhaps another CAT-scan should be done, ... "just to make sure". What do you suppose they found, ... sure enough, a confirmation of the first CAT-scan. I was discharged on a Thursday being told that the surgeon was arranging for an MRI and would call me. There was no call until the following Wednesday, by which time I had seen my own doctor in Fort Erie who had attended me while I was in hospital there and asked him to arrange for a surgeon preferably in Hamilton, however, he made an appointment for me with a surgeon in St.Catharines for December 22, ... 1 month and 22 day from the beginning of the problem.
On December 26, Elvin had a small heartattack and spent 9 day in Niagara Falls Hospital, 4 of those days in Emergency on a gurney on a very thin mattress before finally being moved to another room, and then another room, and finally to Hamilton for an angiogram and to have a stent put in. This has been a very stressful 3 months for both of us.
The surgeon in St. Catharines set up an appointment for January 4 for a colonoscopy at St. Catharines General Hospital, ( note we have now covered 4 hospitals in the peninsula) and an MRI on January 5 at Niagara Falls Hospital, known hereafter as GNGH. The results of these tests I received on January 15 and on that day I began my journal with the title, MY JOURNEY. The results of the MRI, indicated the possibility that the mass behind my bowel could possibly be cancerous, and that I had lesions on my liver. I told the surgeon that I wanted the surgery done in Hamilton and would he please get in touch with someone there, which he did. This surgeon wants to do a liver scan, and apparently this cannot be done here in the Niagara Peninsula. I have an appointment now with a Dr. Marcaccio at McMaster Hospital on February 1. Tomorrow morning I am calling him to see if that appointment and the liver scan can please be done on the same day, and surgery, very, very soon.
I find writing out feelings is very cathartic, ... please bear with me and keep me company on my journey. What I have given you is background to where I am to-day.
You are allowed 2 days in a hospital here in Fort Erie and so I was shipped to Welland by Patient Transfer to see a surgeon who was to give me a colonoscopy hopefully followed by surgery. This surgeon after a minimal examination declared that I had gastroenteritis, not a blockage and took me off all medication. I was having clear liquids to eat. When first in Emergency, there were no bowel sounds, in other words, nothing was moving. About day 2, bowel sounds finally began to be heard by stethoscope and this was the beginning of diarrhea that lasted for about 10 days. On the day I was to be discharged, the surgeon in Welland decided that perhaps another CAT-scan should be done, ... "just to make sure". What do you suppose they found, ... sure enough, a confirmation of the first CAT-scan. I was discharged on a Thursday being told that the surgeon was arranging for an MRI and would call me. There was no call until the following Wednesday, by which time I had seen my own doctor in Fort Erie who had attended me while I was in hospital there and asked him to arrange for a surgeon preferably in Hamilton, however, he made an appointment for me with a surgeon in St.Catharines for December 22, ... 1 month and 22 day from the beginning of the problem.
On December 26, Elvin had a small heartattack and spent 9 day in Niagara Falls Hospital, 4 of those days in Emergency on a gurney on a very thin mattress before finally being moved to another room, and then another room, and finally to Hamilton for an angiogram and to have a stent put in. This has been a very stressful 3 months for both of us.
The surgeon in St. Catharines set up an appointment for January 4 for a colonoscopy at St. Catharines General Hospital, ( note we have now covered 4 hospitals in the peninsula) and an MRI on January 5 at Niagara Falls Hospital, known hereafter as GNGH. The results of these tests I received on January 15 and on that day I began my journal with the title, MY JOURNEY. The results of the MRI, indicated the possibility that the mass behind my bowel could possibly be cancerous, and that I had lesions on my liver. I told the surgeon that I wanted the surgery done in Hamilton and would he please get in touch with someone there, which he did. This surgeon wants to do a liver scan, and apparently this cannot be done here in the Niagara Peninsula. I have an appointment now with a Dr. Marcaccio at McMaster Hospital on February 1. Tomorrow morning I am calling him to see if that appointment and the liver scan can please be done on the same day, and surgery, very, very soon.
I find writing out feelings is very cathartic, ... please bear with me and keep me company on my journey. What I have given you is background to where I am to-day.
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