They're Creeping Back

For a few days, I have been able to keep the negative thoughts away, ... and it has been good. I convinced myself, that everything would turn out fine, ... that whatever was growing inside me was very small, .. could be removed easily,... that by talking to them, I had at least shrunk the spots on my liver, ( I am a believer in this possibility). However, to-day, even though it is a gloriously sunshiny day with about a foot of sparkly, fresh snow on the ground, which usually fills me with joy, my stomach and chest have that anxiousness. I'm trying to think what started this again, ... but can't, unless it is the fact that I have an appointment in 2 days with the surgeon. I have been wanting Monday to hurry and get here and to know when the surgery, if that is what is next, will be.

I have 2 discs with all the information from the CAT-scans, X-rays, and MRI in the car ready to take with me on Monday. I didn't know technology had made this possible. I only had to go to my X-ray department at the hospital and they were ready in 10 minutes. This must be a time-saver for doctors for sure.

I will banish the nerves somehow to-day. Must get the muffins out of the oven.